CURSED

I truly think I am up to no good

I bring nothing but pain and suffering to anyone who loves me

My parents, my sister, my love, my friends (the few I have)

I failed as a son

I failed as a brother

I failed as a lover

I failed as a friend

I failed as a person 

Maybe if I was better everyone would be

Proud of me

If I was a better son

A better brother

A better lover 

A better friend

I thought I was good

The reality is 

I destroy everything I touch 

I don't deserve to be happy

I just live in my illusion

I hate waking up

Because when I am asleep

I can atleast dream of a world

Where 

My parents, my sister, the love of my life, my friends, everyone wants me

I don't wish to die

I just wish I was never born 

Because I bring nothing to people

But pain and suffering

That is the curse I bear

I am sorry.